I’ve put myself on fairly restricted low-fat diet until my trip to Vegas the second week of May. We’re planning for some pool time so I’m eager to look my best in my bathing suit. Being obsessive about my body, it’s far too easy to get obsessed during bathing suit season. So my trainer is working me overtime with some “extreme fitness” and I’m supposed to couple it with a low-fat, high-protein diet. That means that when I’m not eating, I’m thinking about food and all the things I can’t have.
On the can-have list:
- tuna
- cottage cheese
- grilled or baked chicken
- grilled or baked fish
On the can’t-have list:
- cheese
- butter
- beer, wine, etc
- soda (not a big loss)
- candy
It’s a temporary pause for these particular food groups, but it’s just the thought of not having that makes me so frustrated. Gah!
Dinner tonight was steamed shrimp and a big hunk of broccoli, all seasoned with with lemon juice. Quite tasty!
Today I ran across a video slideshow my husband made after our wedding. It had pictures of us from when we started dating up to our wedding and honeymoon. It made me think about how the time he’s been away, I thought would be a chance for me to spoil myself, have some really good me time, but as I was looking at those pictures, I thought about how my priorities now aren’t what they should be. Hard to really put into words, but I guess that looking at those pictures, I saw a person who is different than who I am now. I like to think that I’m constantly improving on my self, making myself into a better person, but seeing those photos made me wonder if I’m a different person from who he married (it’s only been 2 years) and if the changes I’ve made have really been for the better. I guess we’ll see.